My Sick Nessie

The days are really getting harder for me here. I feel like I'm loosing control. I have always told myself I would adopt a lot of kids, but we would never let having to many kids get into the way of us living a normal life. When I say normal life I mean going out into public with our family to eat, and just going to the grocery store, and going to Fiesta Texas with our family. We love to do things as a family, and told ourselves we would continue to do so. We have done well with this until now. Nessie has been screaming for so long that now we can not go anywhere. When she screams I think she is just doing it because she has gotten really spoiled. Tony thinks she is in pain. When we tell her to stop though, she gets it, she will stop for a moment, then she just starts all over again. We have seen a few doctors, but so far she is fine. If we put her down after holding her, she starts her scream. Its is a high pitch scream that everyone hears. We went to the beach this weekend, and we could not wait to come home. She screamed the entire time. Today we went to eat, and we left before we were even done.. Now I feel like I have finally done it..I can not go out in public anymore. I am stuck in my home because I have a child that everyone will stare at me and wonder why I can not keep her quite. She even screams when she is happy. When she stands up she gets so excited that she just stands there screaming.

My neighbor would come get her to watch her while I tried to have chill out time, but now she wont even come around anymore because she does not know how to handle her either. I sooo wanted to adopt more babies, and more children, but now I don't think I could handle anymore. I hope that this is just a short phase and that she will grow out of this, but for now it just keeps getting worse.

The other little ones are happy and growing so fast. Little Leeska surprises us everyday. She learns so much from her new school, and haves so much fun there. Eli has started to smile at us more than he used to. Hr is never to affectionate, but he getting closer to giving us a little lovin!!

I will try to post more pictures, but for now this is what we have for now. Thanks, Leah

End Of The School Year

As the year draws to an end we sit here trying to figure out if we should home school again, or send them all back to school. For us we like homeschooling, but we do not know a lot of people that do it, so its hard to talk about it to others. They think we are just sheltering our children from what needs to happen. I do not do it to shelter them, We do it because we feel like we can give them better education, while teaching them about God. We also like to be together all the time as a family. We do more family functions, and vacations. We do have a few of the kids that WANT to go to public school. So, I think we should send the ones that want to go, but hubby thinks we do all or none!! That's what we have been debating all week this week.

As for the babies, well, we have had a long hard week with Nessie. She has had something wrong with her for 3 long weeks. The doctors are trying to figure this out, but no luck yet. She just screams all day. It seems like something inside of her tummy hurts her, but nothing is showing up on anything. We went to the beach for a little weekend trip, and it was awful. She ruined the trip by screaming the entire time. We don't know what to do to console her. The other babies are doing great. Leeska started school last week. It seems to be going OK, but the teacher does not tell me what is going on. She does not like kids being added to the end of the year. Leeska really loves to get on the bus and to go to school, so that makes us happy.

We enjoy our nigh time together when we can all sit together in our chair together and just watch the babies cruise the room and play with each other. They have grown so much in the past 3 months, and they have learned so much as well. We can not wait for the day that God calls us to do this again.

This week is a busy week of trying to go to new appts for Nessie to understand her pain. Pray that God will send us to the right doctors so that her pain will end forever!!